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Emahjen
Seeking Straight Female
31 yrs, Single Male for Dating, Friendship / Pen Pal, Marriage
Freedom with-out Peace is nothing
myspac /emahjenink
About me hm? Well, let's see... What is there to say about me.. Okay, here goes nothing..Hello my name is Reverand Erik " Dude Thomas " Sakshaug - aka. Jonas.I totally agree that you can never make the 1st impression twice, sadly... I've screwed up so often in front of people I really care about and would want to get to know better, but everytime I manage to do something to spoil a good start. Maybe some of those people are reading now, but what can I say?... Everyone has usually enough friends at this point who really wants to care enough for one more... I wish people would know the value of a decent person when they meet one. People should not be so blinded by their ego...We are all the same... My passions in life are futurism, cosmic triggers, synchronicities, fine food and wines, my friends, my spiritual beliefs, philosophy, esoteric lit, music, dance, psychedelics, learning - meeting new people and having new and exciting experiences. I am moving towards something greater. I have an odd mix of evolutionist and spiritualist in me, I like to see the divine within everyone, which is waiting to emerge over time. Many religious traditions express how the divine spirit lost its identity, thus creating our world of turmoil, but in time it will find itself and all things will again become one. I think the purpose of existence is not only to be able to answer this question, but to see through the veils that have obscured our awareness in order to finally BE, free from delusion and ignorange. Thus, I do not particlarly know who i am, but my life is a search for clues, for things that penetrate my existence, that move me. I seek beauty and have a strong respect for tension, as it is the foremost thing that inspires creativity in myself. I am a wanderer, a philosopher, an artist, a lover...I love, I truely deeply care, I'm not perfect but try to be pure. I usually find myself somewhere along the spectrum between grace and grit, working on collapsing this apparent duality every moment. I simulatneously consider these words to be expression of my truth right now, and also regard them as total intellectualized, self centered, pseudo spiritual, static bullshit and throw them out right now... It has gone so far that every time my mind wonders to this thought, I don't really know who I am or who I am suppose to be anymore I can't breathe and my heart stops for a moment. Somewhere in all the chaos of trying to find my place and love in this world, trying to fit in I lost who I am... I've been in this oblivious state of being for as long as I can remember(more or less when my Mother past away) I don't see the point in getting up in the morning at times...at times I feel I've lost all believe in humanity, in faith, peace and love, lost all faith towards the world, all there seems to be left is believe in self-growth, there doesn't seem to be anything left, I believe in love and in all other meanings of life, I just keep thinking that they are just delusions that man has created to escape the real, harsh fact that we are all creation of nature...Yet I know and understand that we need to believe in life loving grace and make god's and goddess's out of ourselfs! And I won't stop believeing and I won't quit or give up the search.
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| Physical Traits |
| Body: | Athletic - 199 cm, 185 kg |
| Looks: | Light Brown eyes, Light Brown hair |
| Personal Background |
| Ethnicity: | Native American, Caucasian, Other |
| Religion: | Spiritualism |
| Occupation: | Owner |
| Children: | I don't have any children |
| Language: |
English (Spoken & Written)
Spanish (Spoken)
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| Horoscope: | Virgo |
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